"You of Little Faith"

𝒯𝓊𝑒𝓈𝒹𝒶𝓎'𝓈 𝒫𝓇𝒶𝓎𝑒𝓇: 𝟣/𝟤𝟨/𝟤𝟢𝟤𝟣

𝒮𝒸𝓇𝒾𝓅𝓉𝓊𝓇𝑒: Mathew 8:26

𝒯𝑜𝓅𝒾𝒸: "You of Little Faith"

It's Testimony Tuesday and I decided I would share a very personal experience that happened to me somewhere around 22 years ago.

After graduating high school, I attended Albany State University in Albany, GA. A year later, my youngest sister graduated high school and joined me there as well. So naturally, we continued our tradition of being roommates, lol, (involuntary growing up and voluntary as we matured into young ladies).

Around my sophomore year, and Kim's freshmen year at ASU, I was going through changes of freedom, excitement, enjoyability, and did I already say freedom? Back then I was dating, staying out late, abusing my temple, attending a party or two, and doing typical college behavior. Did I mention I was vain on top of everything? Well I was. My mother would call the dorm room and I swear Kim always covered for me. And most times, Kim probably didn't know where I was herself. Needless to say, my behavior during this time was not indicative of how my mother raised her three daughters to be.

However, during this time, I was not aware of my spiritual gifts. God has always spoken to me through dreams, visions, and revelations. So in my sophomore year, I started having these vivid dreams. The dreams would come in three's on Wednesday's specifically. Anyhoo, three weeks in a row I dreamed that I was dying in my sleep and that satan and his demons were detaching my soul from my physical body. I woke up and opened my eyes but couldn't move my body. I remember screaming out in my mind, I didn't want to die. I wasn't ready to die. But what I was really saying, my soul was not ready to die. I was not prepared. I could see the Angel's of God fighting these demons off of me. I knew I had purpose, even back then.

Nonetheless, I did not change my behavior and I continued with this lifestyle. Until, one morning I woke up, and my head was attached to my pillow. I'm going to try to explain the condition I had. Let me say this, when I went to bed the night before, I was healthy. When I woke up the next morning, my entire scalp was secreting a yellow, thick, running, fluid that would crust over minutes after leaking from my scalp.

I panicked!! I remember waking my sister up in complete shock. I was very big on my personal appearance (back then). I went to the infirmary on campus and the nurse stated they had not seen this before and they sent me away with an antibiotic. Well days turned into a week and one week turned into two weeks. My mother, being the nurse she is, left Augusta to Albany and visited me in the dorm. I was depressed. I wasn't sleeping. And I had not left out of the dorm room in days. My mother was shocked but calm to see my condition. I remember showing her my pillow case and and explained once this yellow crust drained from my scalp, it hardened in place. I would wake up with my head attached to the pillow case. As a young college girl, I didn't want to live anymore. This felt like devastation!

So my mother began taking me to Physicians across Albany. And each physician would say they were unfamiliar with this condition but would still prescribe antibiotics. But each morning I opened my eyes, my condition had not improved. Finally, my mother decided to take me to an African doctor. And to clarify, this was a Christian doctor born of African decent. I can't remember his name, but I will never forget the words of this medical physician. I told him my story and that no one has helped me. Everyone was prescribing medications to me and nothing was helping. Do you see the negative words I used? (Nothing worked / no one helped me). My mindset was not even healthy.

The Doctor then asked me "do you believe in Jesus Christ"? I said, "yes I do". He asked "do you have a "relationship" with Him"? I said well I thought I did. He knew. That day, this Doctor, knew. He knew that my condition was not physical. It was spiritual. He then quoted this bible verse to me, with my mom in the room: Mathew 8:26 reads, "And he said to them, “Why are you afraid, O you of little faith?” Then he rose and rebuked the winds and the sea, and there was a great calm". He stated you have such little faith Monica. And guys, when I say I literally felt a change in me, that exact moment, I knew something had just taken place. And though he gave me the Word of God, he also gave me medicine for my natural state.

I woke up the next morning and my scalp was completely dry and completely cleared up. Like nothing had ever happened. The Doctor recognized something in me that I didn't see for myself. My soul was in turmoil and in war with my flesh. God knew, that to get my attention, He would have to change my physical appearance, being that I was such a vain girl back then.

What I want to ask you is this... what is your relationship to Jesus Christ today? Tomorrow is not promised. I had a dream three weeks in a row where satan was aggressively fighting to get my soul to go to hell with him. But I thank God for His Son Jesus. Jesus knew that my young, vain self was no match for satan. When Jesus died on the Cross those 2,000 years ago, it was for me. It was for "Monica". And it was my sophomore year of college that I gave my life to Christ. I received Him as my personal Lord and Savior.

Don't make God use drastic measures to get your attention. I am here to warn you and to minister to you in advance. It's so much easier when we submit to the will of God early on. What changes do you see in your life that you can make today? Ask God to guide you. Allow Him to be a lamp to your feet. Allow Him to guide your footsteps. You are not strong enough to do it by yourself. You see, the dreams I was having confirmed Ephesians 6:12, "For our struggle is not against flesh and blood, but against the rulers, against the authorities, against the powers of this dark world and against spiritual forces of evil in the heavenly realms". You can't fight what you can't see. Come into the protection and covering of Jesus Christ. His blood is what saves you from the evil war.

Father God in the name of Jesus, I pray for every lost soul reading this message today. Father God I pray for the souls who have already accepted Your Son Jesus as well. Father give the lost Your supernatural strength to deny their flesh and turn to You. Father God renew and restore the hope of those who are in relationship with You through Christ, but who may need a boost of spiritual energy. Father God, use this blog to help others see You in me, and to see You in these entries God.

It's in Jesus name I pray, Amen. If you desire salvation by accepting Jesus Christ into your life, please pray the prayer below and submit a prayer request so that I may point you in the right direction for the next steps. After receiving Christ, find a bible teaching church, so that you have a covering and so that you may begin your spiritual growth.

Prayer of Salvation:

"Father, I know that I have broken your laws and my sins have separated me from you. I am truly sorry, and now I want to turn away from my past sinful life toward you. Please forgive me, and help me avoid sinning again. I believe that your Son, Jesus Christ died for my sins, was resurrected from the dead, is alive, and hears my prayer. I invite Jesus to become the Lord of my life, to rule and reign in my heart from this day forward. Please send your Holy Spirit to help me obey You, and to do Your will for the rest of my life. In Jesus' name I pray, Amen."

Remember this, Jesus Loves You & So Do I.

𝐿𝑜𝓋𝑒,

𝑀𝑜𝓃𝒾𝒸𝒶